Brielle’s Last Ultrasound

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We had our scan today and the technician was really nice. She knew this was probably our last scan and took extra time and let us watch Brielle move around. I cried my eyes out. I pretty much cried my eyes out the whole appointment. My fluid is in the mid 40’s, so it’s holding steady, which is really good. Now the bad news. Brielle isn’t growing. Since last months measurements she has not put on weight, in fact these measurements had her smaller. Dr. B said that probably wasn‘t right and she was probably around the same size as last time. Her length and bones have grown, but her weight has not. Until Dr. B saw that he was fine with us waiting another 2-3 weeks to have her, with weekly ultrasounds to make sure she was okay, of course. When he saw that her weight had not changed, he made it very clear we needed to deliver either tomorrow, Monday, or Tuesday. We’re leaning towards Monday, and I’ll call tomorrow and schedule the c-section. Then I can give everyone a time and stuff.

Another bit of good news, he is very optimistic about her brain being highly functional. She is very responsive and active still and she’s showing only good signs (weight being the only bad one). So he is optimistic. He’s doing his best to give Brielle her best chance at living and I am incredibly grateful. If her brain matter is strong enough then she has a pretty good chance. But if it’s not, the vessels in her brain may burst after birth and she may bleed out quickly or slowly, depending on the bleed.

I’m terrified and heartbroken. I do not want my sweet Brielle to leave me. But either her brain is causing a nutritional problem or my placenta isn’t giving her what she needs. I don’t want her to go and this is the moment I’ve dreaded for the past twenty weeks. I’m going to make a list of specific prayer requests that David and I have, and I’ll post that later.

David and I are going to give Brielle the best weekend we can. Right now David is making one of her favorite meals, pineapple, red pepper, chicken stir fry. She’ll be a very happy baby tonight. I’d appreciate any suggestions you may have on things we should do this weekend.

Starting Somewhere: Fetal Procedures for Anencephaly

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If you work at a hospital or are a medical professional, please read this post.

Since Brielle’s diagnosis I’ve been working on how to care for anencephalic infants. From the recommendation of a neuroscientist friend, I bought “Fundamental Neuroscience” and “Atlas of Neuroscience.” I’ve spent weeks reading publications on PubMed, studying the brain, amniotic fluid, head trauma, anencephaly, how anencephaly occurs, etc. I find this all very fascinating and incredibly surprising how little is known about anencephaly. Quite frankly, nothing is known.

If you’ve been following my posts, you know that a few weeks ago a baby was given horrific care by a hospital in Tennessee. Why? Pure ignorance on how to care for an anencephalic neonate. So number one on my list was to establish a basic set of protocols for hospitals and practices to follow in regards to basic maternal and fetal/neonatal care. Number two, determine a way to to treat anencephalic infants with strong vital signs. Number three, find a way to treat anencephalic babies in utero and save their lives. Did I do this for Brielle’s sake? Absolutely, but I also did it for every other family in this situation.

Anencephaly is the most common neural tube defect, but 95% of the cases are aborted. That leaves only around 50-60 babies born a year in the United States. Very few physicians will see no more than a handful of cases in their career go to term. I think a big part of why there are so many abortions, is because parents are told their baby has no brain and is “incompatible with life,” they are presented with a situation that has no hope. This is something that needs to change, because these babies do have brains, and some of them do survive. For instance, the seventeen year old girl currently living with anencephaly. There is always hope.

I’m not sure if this is the right course of action. And this is definitely a more difficult plan, but we need to start somewhere. I propose we start here:

Fetal Procedures:
– MRI before 34 weeks for clear picture of brain matter before Tissue Factor is introduced in Amniotic Fluid at 34 weeks. (TGF is a suspected component of amniotic fluid that deteriorates brain matter after 34 weeks. By having MRI’s we can begin to see how fluid affects anencephalic brains and potentially when to deliver the baby for best possible outcomes.)
– MRI after 34 weeks to check on brain.
– Check for extracerebral hemorrhages and intracerebral hemorrhages via ultrasound or MRI. (This will better prepare the medical team at the time of delivery.)
– Colour doppler imaging to be done to monitor for AVM (arteriovenous malformation).
– Check for AVM, look to vein of Galen and frontal region of brain for AVM occurrence. This will be difficult in an anencephalic brain since their brains are organized differently.
– Continuous assessment of cardiac failure or hydrocephalus is required to monitor for AVM.
– Fetal behavior documented by mother. This needs to be known to better detect brain bleeds at time of birth.

Neonate Procedures:
– Vaginal birth increases risk of head trauma. Induction increases risk of head trauma.
– Delay cord clamping to reduce risk of brain bleeds. Specifically Intraventricular hemorrhage (most probable cause of death).
– Use of artificial dura and sterile gauze to cover brain. Dressing must be kept wet and baby must be kept warm.
– Monitor for signs of brain bleeds (could be six to eight hours before first signs present themselves):

– Fixed and dilated pupil. Eye will be positioned down and out on side of injury.
– Weakness of the extremities. Will be on the opposite side of the lesion.
– Loss of visual field. Will be on the opposite side of the lesion.
– Irregular respiration (apnea)
– Vomiting
– Confusion/lowered level of consciousness
– Seizures (especially if not seen in utero)
– Neck stiffness
– ECG/EKG (if showing other signs): Hypertension, Bradycardia, Cardiac arrhythmias, Cardiac arrest, Other changes
– Decreased muscle tone
– Lethargy
– Weak suck
– Excessive sleep
– Decreased reflexes
– Oxygen levels should be monitored
– BP should be monitored
– MRI to check for brain bleeds
– Regular state and federal required testing (this is important because this is currently not done for anencephalic infants)
Be aware that use of ECMO can cause intra axial brain bleed.

Maternal Procedures:
– Monitor for polyhydramnios during pregnancy.
– Monitor for amniotic fluid embolism during and after delivery. As well as during pregnancy.
– Increased risk for AF embolism with an anencephalic baby and polyhydramnios. This is due to neural debris in amniotic fluid.
– If the mother had polyhydramnios, monitor for postpartum hemorrhage.

God is Healing Brielle!

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God is healing Brielle and doing great things! I woke up Monday morning and was able to get in and out of bed by myself, as well as do basic everyday things I had not been able to do previously, due to my high fluid levels. Each day I was able to do more and more and my stomach size became smaller and smaller.

Today we had an ultrasound appointment and talked to Dr. B. My fluid levels had dropped from 47 cm to 34 cm! I dropped that much fluid in four days! That is not done. When Dr. B called us back to his office to review the scans, he watched me walk into the office and just looked at me with an extremely puzzled expression. David has been laughing about it all day, because Dr. B looked completely baffled. He asked, “Have you been exercising?” I laughed, “NO.” We talked about my fluid levels and he was very happy to see them down and have talks of amnio reduction off the table. But he was thoroughly confused. The impression that I got was that polyhydramnios does not, suddenly, or rapidly decrease. And the only explanation for this rapid decrease is that Brielle’s swallowing reflex has been healed. Which means God is healing Brielle’s brain and head!

We looked over Brielle’s scans and measurements. Our last measurements she was very underweight and it looked like she would be a very small baby. She’s 5 and a half pounds today. At 36 weeks a baby should be about 6 pounds. Her legs are a week and a half ahead, meaning she has really long legs! Not too much of a surprise considering her parents are tall. Her abdomen, which had been small, had considerable growth, still behind, but not by much.

And now here is the really cool part. Tooth buds develop in a fetus in the first trimester. Brielle has not had tooth buds (meaning she would not have teeth). As we were going over her scans today, David asked what a white line was across her face, near her mouth. Dr. B in a bit of a surprised tone says, “Those are…tooth buds, she has tooth buds.” It is rare for an anencephalic baby to have teeth. Brielle has developed teeth sometime in the past week! At first I just thought that was cool, but then I started thinking how long it takes for a fetus to make tooth buds (weeks) and then how awesome God is to have given her tooth buds. Later it hit me, he wouldn’t have given her tooth buds if she wasn’t going to need them. Brielle is going to need to chew!

David and I are overwhelmed with joy and excitement! Brielle is not completely healed, yet, but she is well on her way. God is doing great and amazing things with her! Things that are not done. I have prayed that God would do this in a way that would bring him the most glory and praise, this week was not the week for full healing, because it wasn’t the right moment. We eagerly await the right moment and in the meantime are incredibly thankful and awe struck of God and his work. He has heard our cries and has stepped in and begun healing her. We have an awesome God!! And we believe God will heal Brielle!

David and I will not stop praying for healing until she is completely healed. We are also giving prayers of thanks and praise. Please join us in thanking God for the miracles he is performing with our baby and asking him to continue healing her. I am humbled and deeply, greatly, thankful that I serve such an amazing and merciful God!

(We will need to request the picture with her teeth because we did not receive that one. The images we did receive were blurry because she is getting so big and because she was wiggling all over the place! Once we have it, we will post it.)

Brielle is 35 Weeks!

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Brielle is 35 weeks! We celebrated a little early this week. Thursday (a day early) we went and saw a Rifftrax of a horrible ’80s movie called, Miami Connection. The guys who do Rifftrax are the same guys who did Mystery Science Theater, they make fun of movies. It is really hilarious. It’s not mean, it’s all in good fun, but they are really very funny. Anyways, we had a good time out and laughed ourselves silly. At one point, David was laughing so hard I thought he was about to have a heart attack.

We also had an appointment Thursday afternoon to check my fluid levels. They were up to 47 cm, that’s a lot. I’m actually feeling better than I was at 37 cm. I can breathe and sleep fine. I’m having a lot of trouble walking and eating. There’s not a lot of room in there for food and my joints are like, “Too much weight!!” So, you know, good fun. Otherwise, everything looked great for both me and Brielle. All of our stats were perfect.

Saturday, my gastroparesis support group threw me a baby shower for Brielle. It was so kind and sweet. It was very special. We watched Jane Eyre, the 1983 Timothy Dalton version. Brielle liked it! We’ve seen two versions now and she liked both. Which is good, Jane Eyre is my favorite book. Overall, this week Brielle and I will be taking it easy and watching a lot of movies. Because that’s about all Mommy has the strength for.

Brielle did do some funny things the other day. I woke up to her dancing her little booty off. I mean flailing her arms and legs in every direction, she is quite the acrobat. I gently patted my belly and said, “Good morning sweet girl.” She froze. She stopped moving altogether and retreated deep in my tummy. I woke up again a few hours later to a new set of acrobatics, this one with lots of punches to my abdomen. So I rubbed on that spot and she once again froze and retreated. I guess I wasn’t supposed to know what she was up to. Silly girl is so shy! Saturday, David and I were watching my tummy and Brielle was kicking so hard you could see my belly jump (it’s harder to see that because of all the fluid I’m carrying). David started talking and she stopped. So I told her Daddy was gone and could she show Mommy how big and strong she is getting? Oh then she started moving again. So David had to sit there quietly and not move while she put on her little show. Later, David kept saying, “How did we get such a shy daughter?” I had to remind him, she’s OUR daughter. You don’t get much more introverted than David and I, what did he expect?

The Murdock’s Story

This is beautiful and made me cry. They asked for a day with their sweet baby boy with anencephaly and were given seven days. I’ll never stop asking for more time with Brielle. God is good and kind.

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